just for one more time, can you take me to this important place?
this time,
I want to face Miyoko and Hiroki as my real self
If I can do that...
"I can be fully prepared to die"
that's what you said to me, right?
yes
you really mean it?
hey, wait a minute
what are you talking about?
that's like as if Kazu...
yes
Nagata-san...
...is going to die.
it's dangerous! it's dangerous!
Hashimotoooo!!!
you try say that again!
I'm gonna get killed!
you idiot! try say that again!
calm down!
Chuu-san!
how could you act so calmly?!
though I acted calm, I couldn't say this easily
Nagata-san will die soon
once this journey is over, it will be his time of death
if you're telling that to me, I'd totally understand since in reality I'm already old and sick
but why Kazu...
that night's temperature was below minus one degree
and Nagata-san is fairly drunk as well
it's an unfortunate situation...
moreover, Nagata-san didn't have any drive to live anymore
so you have a different purpose in asking him to ride along?!
Chuu-san
as I thought, you guys are the reaper!
Chuu-san, that's enough
why should I?!
I've said I prepared for it, right?
I had a hunch about it from the very first time
then what is our purpose in doing this journey?
we can't change the reality to our convenience
we have no choice but to accept it
isn't that the moral of this journey?
that's preachy!
why...
why everything turns out ugly?!
do you even know what kind of memory they'll have about you in the present world?!
they'll think of you as a loser!
that's probably true
but,
there is a much more important thing than my own life or death
Hashimoto-san
just for one final time,
please allow me to meet Miyoko and Hiroki
this time, I want to face them as my own self
and before I die,
I want to say my last goodbye
for your next important place,
I won't be the one who's making the decision
but it'll be yourself
by wishing it hard enough
so,
shall we go now?
Chuu-san?
thank you!
but, wasn't this expensive?
ah, no
wait, my phone...
it's February 2nd last year?!
right,
this is a day before Hiroki's entrance exam, where I gave Miyoko that watch as a present
happy birthday, Miyoko
thank you
didn't you say you want to celebrate this along with Hiroki's passing the exam?
I guess that's just my early optimism
if you don't like it, you can take that watch to the recycle shop
why would I?!
I know that in the end, Hiroki failed the exam
and Miyoko was never even once wearing that watch
and not long after that, I saw the same watch was put up for sale at the nearby recycle shop
hey, do you wanna go to the Katori Shrine with me tomorrow?
what about your work?
I'll take a day off
I want us to pray together for Hiroki to pass the exam
even to that extend...
hey,
have I ever told you about going to Katori Shrine tomorrow?
so nostalgic...
hasn't it been 12 years ever since our last visit with Hiroki?
that really is a place full of precious memories
tomorrow there, I wanna talk to you about something important
(e-mail from Tsubasa)
"Fail!" "Fail!"
"you're gonna fail!! and we'll be on the same school again"
"master Hiroki, praying for your failure"
Hiroki,
it's dad
I'm coming in
what's wrong, dad?
sorry for bothering you
finally, it's tomorrow
how's your condition?
I'm all good
I won't caught off guard and slipped the way I did at Harumi School's exam
is that so
mind I take a look?
it's okay
just a junk e-mail anyway
let's go outside
eh?
dressed warmly, okay?
eh?!
you want to ride that?
yes
wait a minute...
I must study for tomorrow
that's okay, let's go!
how about a photo for your memento?
a photo for your memento?
how about a photo for your memento?
I want one, please
thank you very much
eh?!
you really want it?
it's okay, right?
I want to take a picture with you
but, can we not do it at this place?
listen, Hiro
you probably will forget everything about tonight
what do you mean?
either about the photo we're about to take,
our ferris wheel ride after this,
and even our conversation in there
thank you for waiting
please
isn't that absurd?
somehow, you're acting strange are you alright, dad?
but you have to remember this
don't forget about the way I am tonight
somehow, it's like a last request
both of you, please look over here
here we go
okay, show me the smile
that time,
was Chuu-san feel the way I'm feeling, when we took the picture together?
you want to take it?
I never even have one photo of us together, Kazu
we are houbai!
half and half!
that was the first and last photo of me and Chuu-san
was that also gonna be a never-happened thing as well?
the afternoon view is beautiful, but this night view is pretty good too
what's wrong?
nothing
are you scared?
no I'm not
is that so?
I'm not scared, it's just my heart starts beating fast
but back then I was fine with this though
well, I'm the opposite
when I was small, I always saying that I'm scared and I held my mother's hand tightly
eh, really?
yes
the grown-up who scare with ferris wheel ride is probably your granddad
granddad?
yes
your granddad practically shrank on his seat and not even dare to look down
eh?
so you had once ride the ferris wheel with granddad?
yes I had
recently
eh, so you two have get along?
it's impossible, right?
beside, granddad is in the hospital how can he ride a ferris wheel
it must've happened only in your dream, you're telling me a bogus story
this is probably my last time with Hiroki
what's wrong?
listen, Hiro...
whenever you feel suffered,
just run away
even though you failed your exam,
it's okay to be a loser
because there's no one who always be an all around-winner in life
if...
if you ever get bullied
just move far away
how do you...
it's okay to run away, Hiro
to me, that's also an act of strength
if Chuu-san heard this, he's probably gonna get mad
and he'd said, "don't run away! There's no other options but to win"
but, I'm sorry, Chuu-san
this is my way of doing things
I'm sorry, Hiro
I never understand how's your real feeling up until now
I...
...was too scared to be hated by you
so I only acted as a shallow good father
I'm really sorry
as your dad right now
let me tell you one thing
I love you more than anyone
you are my treasure
thank you, dad
me too
I believe...
for Hiroki's future...
I believe in Hiroki and the future
Hashimoto!
get me more beer!
somehow, Chuu-san is so cranky
yeah
what are you doing?! I'm running out of beer
hurry up buy me some more!
you're really okay?
why? you got a problem?
that's not what I mean
you really don't wanna go to Nagata-san's place?
I don't give a damn about that kid anymore
if he really wants to die, then let him be
but if you die in this kind of ending with Nagata-san
you'll end up wandering in regret as a ghost forever, right?
are you okay with that?
Chuu-san,
why don't you try to make peace with uncle Kazu...
SHUT UP!
that guy had decided to finish things in his own power
I have nothing to do with it anymore
whatever happen, happened!
it's son's independence! parent's independence!
it's the houbai's independence! (Houbai Banare)
in short, it's HB!
from now on, call me Chuu-san the Pencil!
where are you going?
to take a piss
I drank too much last night, my bladder is full
it's leaking out, it's leaking out
it's leaking out
(Katori Shrine)
sorry for waiting
I also just arrived now
hey,
what's with all this?
before we got married, we always do this wait at the meeting place, right?
and I always feel bad if I let you be the one who's waiting
did you know that?
that road where you showed up from, known as the woman's path (Onna Michi)
while mine called the man's path (Otoko Michi)
two individuals coming from different paths for a prayer
apparently there's a tradition, if a couple walk together through the small gate on the path behind the main shrine
they will be tied with everlasting happiness and...
I'm sorry
I still have other things to do after this, so I want to get this done quickly
what do you want to talk about?
right
you told me yesterday, right?
that you want to talk about something important here
how should I say it?
if this will take time, why don't we go for a pray first?
it will bring no favor, if we don't pray for Hiroki's success now before he finished his exam
but no matter what we'll do, Hiroki will fail
eh?
Hiroki will continue at the same school
stop joking around
you might jinx it with your words
certainly, Hiroki has had a little setback
but if he puts his utmost effort, he'll find no difficulties
if we didn't put our trust in him, then who will?
I already knew it,
about Hiroki's future
Hiroki will fail his exam,
continuing at the same school,
get bullied severely,
stop going to school,
and since then...
I told you to stop joking, right?!
I actually didn't want to talk about this harsh future too
have you been drinking?
no
then, maybe you're too tired?
I'm just telling you the truth
I don't think you are
you can't be aware of everything
aren't you the one who's not aware of how things become really weird in our house, Miyoko?
I said that we're coming to pray here, but do you have money for the offertory?
the amulet and talisman are pretty pricey too
what do you mean?
your piling gambling addiction debt,
have you paid it?
you said you have other things to do after this,
you're going for pachinko?
or betting at the horse racing track?
or you're gonna visit that loan shark to borrow some more money?
did you mean,
those debt collectors had talked to you?
it's my name's kanji...
what does it mean?
you're the one who wrote it
eh?
I don't know who's signing as witnesses. They are your acquaintances, right?
you should be able to recognize whether this my handwriting or not
before the end of this year, you will leave the house
and then,
a year later, on January 14th 2015
you send me this paper on our wedding anniversary
she's abandoning us, isn't she?
it's all your fault
you're turning me like this
and you make mom leaved too!
after his failure, Hiroki become a shut-in
and he wield in domestic violence
that can't be Hiroki
what's wrong with you and your talking about the future
you've got to be high on some drugs
no I'm not
listen to me,
soon i'm gonna get sacked from my job
and then,
I'll be in financial difficulty and dead end
so I have to take a night bus to Fukuyama every week
to visit my father whom I loathed so much
and I do that just to obtain a paycheck from him
I couldn't take care of you, Hiroki, or even my job
and I thought that I'm better off dead
at that moment...
at that moment,
that wagon appeared
wagon?
listen,
you may find that what I'm gonna tell you next is hard to believe
but it is the truth
listen carefully
Ryuusei Wagon #09 subbed and timed by: minipipami
wait a minute
ghost?
going back the time?
you think it's funny to make a fool out of me?
that's not what I meant
then why are you making up stories like that?
I'm not making this up
you gotta believe me
I really went back to one year ago, and there I met Chuu-san
Chuu-san?
the younger version of father
he appeared as a wraith
a wraith?
you had met him too couple of times
but you just don't remember
he has this rude Hiroshima dialect,
always pulling up his pants until reach his chest, and he has a funny gait
you too had went with him once to pachinko and horse racing
will you stop it, I never know that kind of person
that's right,
you had forgotten about it all
if that delusional story was the important thing that you wanted to tell me,
then I'm done accompanying you
I'm going to pray alone
Me and Chuu-san saw you at Ueno that day
you walked together with that guy
at first I thought you're having an affair,
but then I went back to the past
and by doing that journey,
I got to know that he is a loan shark who's lending you money
the company's name is Ryuu Planning,
and his name is certainly Koga
that day on the 2nd floor of the coffee shop in front of Ueno station,
you're actually paying him the installment of your debt
it was 500 thousands, including the interest...
Stop it!
you're hiring a private detective, weren't you?
and that divorce paper, you're searching my old friends' names
and then you forged them
why are you trying so hard to make me believe your story?
I just wanted you to know everything
and then, I wanted to apologize
apologize?
I'm sorry, Miyoko
the reason why you addicted to gambling is because you want to resolve your dissatisfaction towards me, right?
to make feel you cornered like that,
I'm really sorry
so that's what it's all about...
you had talked nonsensely from the beginning just to ease my guilt?
huh...?!
you really are a kind person
an ideal husband that's longed by everyone,
always put family as the first priority over work,
lend a helping hand for house chores everyday,
plan the household budget, you basically can do everything,
you never complains, affectionate,
very attentive,
always cherish me and Hiroki more than anything
being together with you...
...is suffocating
only when I'm gambling,
I can't forget about feeling choked-up
the one who should do that journey is me!
if what you had told me is really true,
then take me back with you
let me meet with that Chuu-san too
there's no way you can do that, right?
that kind of convenient story is never exist
don't make a fool of me!
Miyoko
don't look at me!
the way you're staring at me like now...
...is unbearably despising
I'm...
...gonna go to a different shrine
(Recycle Shop)
(will pay for jewelry and accessory in high price)
sorry if I shock you
my name is Chuu-san
I don't know how many times I've introduced myself
but you probably don't remember me
dad...
it's Chuu-san
is this possible...
that...
it's awkward if you keep staring like that
wait!
he really wants to tell you something no matter what
that guy, Kazu
regarding him who couldn't give you happiness
I'm really, really sorry
he's been so shameless in his inability to make his one and only wife happy
he's also really pissing me off in our every dwelling time
so, I really understand your feeling,
but the way you burst out and leaved him like that
that somehow is very cruel of you
if you want to lash out everything that's been bottled up inside you, then lash it out
and you can even swearing whatever words
but please,
don't run away from him
don't turn your back on him
that guy...
...is dyingly wanting to see your face right now
I've heard about you from Kazuo-san
but,
is this really happening?
perhaps
this too will be...
...our last meeting
the last?
cause me and Kazuo too...
...will be gone soon
what do you mean?
that is why
please spend as much time as you have today with him and remember every bit of it well
please...
take care of Kazu!
you really are dad
right now,
I'm Kazu's houbai...
Chuu-san
is something wrong?
no
it's nothing
I'm with this person...
this person?
no...
being together with you...
...is suffocating
don't look at me!
the way you're staring at me like now...
...is unbearably despising
Miyoko
do you remember the time when we bought that apartment?
actually, it's cheaper cos it's a little more narrow
and it's located far from the station
but since I liked that place, I told you I want to live there
you even forced yourself to get a loan, weren't you?
yeah
I...
by the time we lived there, I feel like blaming myself
that because of me, you're always forcing yourself to the limit
no
I never once thought...
I know that
I know that, but I still feel the same
that is why I really, really hate the way you divided those monthly expenses money before you give it to me
because after you've been working so hard,
I want you to at least leave the household budget matter to me
you never even once invited your co-workers to come to our house, right
why?
because I'd seen how terrible when father always brought home a lot of fussy people
it ended up troublesome for mother
if I have to feel that troublesome everyday,
but it then helps your work relations, then I'll be gladly enduring that hardship
wasn't that what your mother think as well?
I never even once thinking that I'm unhappy
that dishwasher too,
you bought it out of the blue without asking me first
I want to have at least the kitchen as the place where I can organize it properly by myself
that's why,
even though that dishwasher...
...has made my job easier,
it also emphasized the fact that I have no place of my own
the television DVR too,
the trash segregation too,
even though I can take care of them all completely,
you always have to check everything up
you always cherish me more than anything,
but yet you never trust me even once to do something!
I...
...just don't want you to have a hard times
but I end up making you feel burdened
yes you are!
things like this soon will make anyone feels too bitter to make a happy face
I don't know whether you do it for our family's sake,
or you're acting as a good father,
but whenever I make a mistake you'll apologize in my place rightaway
that act of kindness never makes me happy even just one bit
and I loathe your smile at that kind of time, I hate it!
you think I don't realize it?
because you don't want to be like your father
you have put your utmost effort for our family
your family idealism...
...is nothing but a self-satisfaction!
you once said to me,
"as long as you're smiling next to me, that will be enough"
I'm not a doll
I can't put on a smile all the time
what I really wanted...
...is to cry with you,
to get angry,
and face the hardships together
I wanted to 'live' together with you!
there's one person said to me,
to just vent all my thoughts and feelings at you
one person?
the one...
who's pulling up his pants till it reached his chest
and has rude...
so you've met him?
Chuu-san?
turns out what you said...
...is really true
or is it possible,
that I'm the one who's turning crazy?!
let me hear it,
your complete story
okay
I told her the story one more time from the beginning
starting from that night,
where I wandered around the street and clutching the divorce paper
sitting on that bench, resenting my own life
by the time I was thinking that I'm better off dead
Hashimoto-san's wagon appeared
and I began the journey to redo my life
and from that journey, I got to know
one by one of the future events that we must face and live in
like Hiroki's entrance exam,
the bullying,
his truancy,
the domestic violence,
the company's restructuring,
father's illness,
about Chuu-san,
Hashimoto-san and Kenta-kun,
their sadness,
and their emotional life's story
I've told Miyoko everything
and then,
Nagata-san...
...is going to die.
you...
...will die?
if I didn't send you the divorce paper...
you don't need to die, right?
no
at that time, everything has not going well in my life
so, it's not your fault
it's alright
your painful feeling only last for today
all the things that you had heard and done today,
you'll forget them completely
really?
I will forget all of this?
yes
without a trace
is that so
that's good then
it may be great if things could be like this everyday
hey,
wanna get omikuji*? (*fortunes written on paper)
but, whatever I get, I will...
it doesn't matter
before that,
why don't we pray first?
I'm glad that we'd talked this out earlier
but why did we never realize it until something had happened?
it's excellent luck!
really?
mine too
eh?
"your lonely winter is over,
the sun is coming between the rift of clouds,
before long, the gentle days will come visit"
yours, Miyoko?
"love luck,
the love between you two is finally starting now"
and the days for you to go into a huddle for many years to come has arrived"
God can be so random
hey,
why do you wanna go here together?
because, if what you said is true,
that Hiroki will fail his exam no matter what,
then our prayers in the shrine will have no means
I wanted to do anything I can for Hiro,
together with you, Miyoko
even though I already knew the outcome
this is the last thing that I can do as a parent
are you really...
...gonna die?
yes
how much...
...time left?
probably soon
If I die...
will you be sad?
of course I will
even though...
...you and I didn't turn out well
but this is not what I wanted
If I can...
I want to go back to our old days
I want to redo it all over again, that's what I always thought
Chuu-san,
as I thought, I'm a bad person
even though I've reached this point,
I still can feel nothing but regret
"Good luck, Hiroki! Your bright future awaits! -Miyoko-" "This time, let's become houbai! -Kazuo-"
is there many other people like me out there?
is it possible,
that before their deaths, human beings are allowed to go back and redo their pasts?
if that really happened,
I want to ride along too, in Hashimoto-san's wagon
if you can, that's not better be the case
but still, it's impossible
because there is no unregretful person who can act as the escort
I feel regretful already
but, I want to meet them
Hashimoto-san and Kenta-kun
and then I will start to reminisce about you
and it will make everyone's excited
what I wanna say had already said
things I want to break off had already broken
everything that I should do had already done
I have no more regret
Miyoko
we can stop here
you should go back rightaway
this is a goodbye
please take care of Hiroki
Miyoko
be happy, okay
I wish you happiness
please be happy
to live a little longer...
...with you and Hiroki,
that's all I ever wanted
it's certainly right over there, right?
let's go
welcome back!
you have to go this far just to take a piss?
what's wrong?
hey, Hashimoto-san
are you the one who decides Kazu's life and death?
I told you I didn't have that kind of power...
if it's not you, then who's in charge?
where do I have to make a plea?
to God?
to Buddha?
who decides Kazu's life and death?
please calm down!
Kazu is...
...my son
I'm begging you
please...
I'm begging you!
I'll do whatever it takes!
but please, don't let Kazu die!
he is my son
Kazu is my precious, precious son!
he has wife and kid
from now on too, he still has a lot and lots of work to do
there's no reason for Kazu to just drop dead like this, right
Hashimoto-san
what should I do to make you spare him?
cos I will do anything
please help him!
I'm begging you!
Ple...
Chuu-san, you alright?
are you alright?
that's right...
just let me die right now! right now!
in exchange,
please give my remaining living time to him
even it's only one day or two days, please give it to Kazu!
please take mine in exchange, even it's only a minute or a second, for Kazu
for Kazu...
for Kazu to live longer!
Hashimoto!
hurry up kill me!
Chuu-san...
you are...
already...
this is...
you've said it to me,
that if two people walk pass through that shrine gate,
they'll be tied in happiness
but...
is it impossible for you to stay in this world for good?
I mean you right at this moment...
maybe this is like what's written on your omikuji
"your lonely winter is over,
the sun is coming between the rift of clouds,
before long, the gentle days will come visit"
how is it?
yes,
it suits you nicely
you're beautiful in anything
well, I'm going for a meeting with Tama Electronic
when you finish, you can go home straightaway
thank you very much
Nagata-san!
Hanamoto-san
that...
eh?
I mean this
thank you very much
bye
Miyoko
thank you
me too
thank you
welcome home
I'm back
thank you very much
for listening to my selfish request till the very end
you don't have anymore regret?
I'm full of regret
but what I can do now is...
Chuu-san?
why Chuu-san doesn't ride along with us?
don't tell me...
where's Chuu-san?
one day...
this kind of time will come, you know what I mean right?
I'm sorry to say...
but Chuu-san's...
time...
is already up